I was swayed by the
Christian Church message for about two months while reading through the
"Christian" Books by C.S. Lewis...he had me hooked for awhile, although I was pretty new to this stuff. But then I came to the realization that the Bible is
not the word of God, but rather a series of stories and myths written by human beings. I tried to justify this by thinking that God had possessed the minds of these writers or gave them visions, and was then still the word of God. But one thing that Lewis made very clear was that human beings must always have
free will -- so in this case they have free will to write and/or change whatever they want in the Bible. Also if God could have possessed the minds of these writers then couldn't the Devil just as easily do the same thing? At that point everything started to unravel.
I then started to read about the history of how the New Testament was put together, and was again extremely disheartened by the whole process.
It's kinda embarrassing to think that I even held these beliefs for a short while, but at least I snapped out of it. Although I can see why people find it comforting. But don't get me wrong, there is plenty to love about the teachings of Jesus, as long as you understand them properly.
If there is a Grandfather type figure watching over us then he has one sick sense of humour,
case and point:
The world's largest Christian TV channel, the California-based Trinity Broadcasting Network, has become embroiled in a multimillion-dollar financial scandal after members of the family that founded it alleged widespread embezzlement.
The claims – by Brittany Koper, whose grandfather Paul Crouch founded TBN, and by Joseph McVeigh, another family member – describe exorbitant spending on mansions in California, Tennessee and Florida, private jets and even a $100,000 (£63,000) mobile home to house the dogs of Crouch's flamboyant wife, Janice.
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According to the lawsuit, reported in US newspapers, Paul Crouch Sr obtained a $50m luxury jet for his personal use through a "sham loan", while church funds – many of which come from donations during events like its "Praise-a-thons" – paid for the dogs' mobile home.
You will know them by their fruit.